I have always believed in dialogue with the Divine. I have never been one to think that a claim of having been spoken to by “God” must mean that someone is unwell, mentally ill…..or anything else. Now, I am very liberal when it comes to defining God…so perhaps that’s why. Who am I to judge whether or not someone has been spoken to by their God?
Unverified (or sometimes Unverifiable) Personal Gnosis is very real and although it is, in my opinion, not as relevant as Shared Personal Gnosis and should not be seen as objective truth or authority….it is not totally invalid.
I am well aware of the stigma that comes along with being open about believing that you have spoken with the Divine, and, well….I have decided that this stigma is ultimately irrelevant to me.
I have had very strong personal relationships with the Divine before. I still have very strong connections to the Divine in some of its many forms. I also believe that different forms can present themselves to us at different times in our lives based on what our own needs may be….
With all of this said…I should get on with it! Over the course of the last couple weeks I have had vivid dreams that I, personally believe may be certain Divinities calling to me or at the very least….making their presence known in my life. Although I have received no names… I have done a lot of research and come to the conclusion that I have uncovered the identities of at least 2 of these Divinities. One very special one in particular.
So…I am trying to build relationships with these Divinities. I have been trying to get into a routine of worship and ritual, not only with these new Divinities…but also the loving Gods that have always cradled me when I have fallen.
I’ve always been a polytheist, even when I’ve devoted time and energy to monotheistic religions! So my worship of several Divinities with intersecting or even colliding or seemingly contradictory back stories has never been a problem for me, spiritually.
I joined ADF and I do plan on starting their Dedicant Path (again) and trying to complete it this time around, but I haven’t started it yet. I’d like to be ready to the best of my ability and I don’t feel like I am yet.
I have been able to find some other sources that have provided me with material that I think will be really helpful when it comes to me developing routine and ritual. I have never been good about developing routine and ritual on my own. So, I think it will be…
Holy shit… I could not finish this entry because there was a massive influx of Asian lady beetles and I’ve spent the last three hours desperately trying to fight them off.