Ok….so it isn’t actually midnight. I don’t think that I can stay awake until then, lol. Anyway…I have these fleeting moments of intense fear. Terror.
I do nothing.
I make no money. I am a stay at home mom.
What will I offer my kids?
How will I care for them if my marriage dissolves?
How will I care for them when my mother dies?
I am worthless.
Are they better with someone else?
This fear is a crippling madness.