İ am quickly running out of energy for social media, again.
I don’t even know how to write about this fatigue properly. I can’t even adequately articulate the way that I feel without being one of those types that bitches about people just being offended for the sake of being offended. But fuck it! This is my space.
I’ve always cherished mutually beneficial dialogue. It’s… incredibly hard to come by, but it still exists here and there. I have learned over the years to choose carefully where I engage or else I could allow someone who ultimately doesnt matter to affect me in a harmful and negative way. I don’t know if it’s because I began to cherish myself more….or if I just have better things to do, like take care of two kids…but giving too much of myself to others who don’t respect the pieces of me that I give….got old. Quick. Trying to educate people who don’t care to be educated got old…quick. Arguing with no positive outcome got old….quick. Allowing total strangers to have a very tangible effect on my day got old….quick. Especially when my children are the primary beneficiaries of my energy and they only deserve the best. They don’t deserve scraps of what some assclown on the internet has left them.
I learned that it’s ok to not like what someone types and just….fuckin move on unaffected lol.
Seeing gaže posting bullshit about us is tiring. Arguing about it is tiring.
But I’m gonna be honest…. it’s just as tiring to see familija up in arms about things that could be better ignored. Like…it’s ok to breathe.
All of it. I find myself wanting away from all of it, but still desiring community.
And I hate this because I love social media. So….İ made a new Facebook where İ can hide out and İ have several safe witchy and pagan groups I’m in.
This happens every once in a while. İ just get so fatigued with social media and the antics and the circular logic and the ineffectual bullshit.
İ also HATE MYSELF because I feel like Im invalidating people and İ don’t wanna do that.
İt’s just hard to watch it all….all of the time.